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Please pray will allow me to get a higher paying position. I had to change jobs twice due to the high level of stress, both involving a pay cut. I have been praying & clinging to Matthew 7:9 - 11 but even with the persistent praying Luke 18:1 - 8), my salary was cut again. What I’d gained in pay since 2002 was taken away from me. I lost my husband 10 years ago & am still struggling with my mortgage. Me being in my late 50’s, it’ll take a miracle to get a higher paying position. Sometimes I think God hates me & is punishing me. I‘be pleaded with Him for mercy. I can’t keep living under this heavy load of stress, most of it financial. Sometimes I wish I was dead my life is so awful at times. The thing I need most is a higher paying job. I don’t want to live in fear & with a mountain of stress. Please pray for God to have mercy on me. I really do sometimes think He hates me. I want to live to see my grandchildren grow up. I am so weak & worn out I don’t know if that’s possible. Thanks!