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I was open about my discontent with my first time as a Christian from 2003 to 2008, I was called "levite," I fell in extreme poverty all those years and when I converted again in 2020 I told to God many things about money, being truly practical, down-to-earth. He showed me fortune through visions, gold, several occasions. So far 2026 around of six years, it has been economically, extreme poverty no matter what again. I am considering dying young instead of living this way fifty years or more. I hate this: Shame, rejection, slander, defamation, accused as a thief, targeted. I am sincere. I don't want to die, I don't wish to be an apostate, this is the way of eternal life. I never pretend to be a sort of monk or austere prophet. I need to be more patient. I was straightforward to God. When will this poverty turn around for good? It is not lovely being indebted to others. They need their money, Daniel, Jesus are not rich. Where is God judging this? I must pay back. I need money to thrive.