Prayer Single View

I feel terrible and I am also very sad that prophet I love shut the door now his words were clear. I need to accept the reality and maybe he is right I can't be a good wife for him I am depressed and I am not a covergirl I got overweight and I am not the youngest anymore besides I am poor I can't provide for that prophet and I can't give him anything. I got overweight and I have short and gray hair and I also lost some teeth I am just not the same as I was years ago now I wonder if I have any chance to find any good husband. Seriously who would want me among the good christian men who are still single? I have no chance anymore to get married I need to accept that and prepare for a single life how horrible I really believed this won't happen to me and now I have to accept the reality this is really horrible I always dreamed of a partner who believes in Jesus and lives with him and who would love me so dearly I wanted to enjoy this kind of intimacy but now all looks so far away.