Prayer Single View

In church I had bad company there were very evil people in church and my christian roommates were very evil too my behaviour and character changed I didn't strife for better values anymore I tried to fit in and become like the people I got in touch with little by little I copied their thoughts their behaviour their reactions their emotions their speech their vocabulary their fears their interests and I became like them after I distanced myself from them I left behind with them as I made myself into their copy now wherever I go I carry them with me because I became like them and I carry all these behaviours with me doing something is easy but undoing something is difficult I don't know how to undo all of these and get rid of all this dirt it's very difficult trauma and depression makes is worse and I feel like there is a huge wave coming against me all the time and I don't have any strength what should I do? I am striped off of all contacts and am alone with someone I don't want