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JOSE from Brazil

November 3 at 6:56 pm
I risked my life for a woman I met through the cloud... I gave all my saving to see her in Scandinavia. When I arrived to Norway, she said to me: "I did it because I was drunk usually those days... I won't drink a coffee with you even. You did it to stay in Norway." I felt my life such a disposable thing. I was shocked in the level she could talk knowing big toil, worthy of a film, that I did for her , that I won't mention. Useless, worthless. I wish to be healed. It was my foolishness and I failed some principles I knew and I was aware of , because she motivated me as a muse... I accepted the lie knowing it was a lie, because I needed motivation those days for rude toil ahead. Worthless. I repent for sure totally before my Lord. I got cheated due some spiritual reading I did on like angelic signs.... This produced sterile fruits at the end. Yeah, I need healing. I have that wound yeah.
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  • Jose on November 3 at 11:32 pm
    That's why, I avoid fools... Everyone can be a fool, I don't try to be a sort of wise man, but some people uhm... Look fooler than me... Adventure of fools, pain!
  • Jose on November 3 at 11:27 pm
    I also tried to get any stint or use in this useless experience, and It was more waste of time. Worthless at its core. Truly...
  • Jose on November 3 at 11:23 pm
    I was dumb but life is too short to stay in that idea stagnant... Get ahead...
  • Jose on November 3 at 9:40 pm
    As I got ill, my recovery took years, and as long as this was so prolonged I lost almost all my closest friends and basically my whole family stopped the relation with me by first time, beggining from the children up to my uncles. I was isolated so far, I got new friends. Yeah... This is my new life... Thanks to God I don't feel hate for that norwegian woman, I preached her, I prayed for her, I gave her advices in relation to some private stuffs... I 've never hated her, yeah. I just feel fooled by myself, because I knew and I was plenty aware and conscious that woman represented someone worthless in my path... She doesn't deserve to be called my greatest nothing, neither my greatest mistake, she doesn't reach any great to me... For good or bad... I just got hit... Because I was not careful enough. It was my complete guilt.
  • Jose on November 3 at 9:16 pm
    The financial backlash I got afterwards was worthy of being called "God's wrath," I get such a poverty striken in relation to the period of prosperity I lived... I got truly badly ill, dying. Not only because of that for sure... I cannot hate her, but it is sure I would not be with her and I told her that. She got pregnant twice of her ex that threatened me to kill me... It was the prize of the shame, the very same I regared "my glory." Beautiful woman... Yeah, she got fat and normal with these years... Worthless. It is possibly my greatest regret, but I value I did it for love and my future family 👪 ... I became a model of failure, that made me bold in Christ. I became extrovert and a transparent man. This made me more free. Even though I don't thank this at all. I won't.
  • Jose on November 3 at 8:57 pm
    I can be single all my life... But I would like to be single and healthy... This wound is heavy when it is touched by some thing... It makes me feel defeated, ashamed, fooled, robbed, abused, dumb, depleted. I would rather stay single to risk myself another time. i could even and I avoided to be destroyed during the pandemic, travelling and so , because it would be twice a scam. Then, this first hit save me from a second one.
  • Jose on November 3 at 8:50 pm
    Yeah, living as a single man, it is a life full of joy usually... I love to be single. But sadly this happened seven years ago... And it leaved a wound... I detached myself from this about love... I have been busy, doing nice things... I just want to be healed, because it is somehow to have a sort of damage that one can forget, but it remains there. It was my guilt. I was another man seven years ago. Out of the church. Life is soft single, but this memory leaved a painful mark. Just a nice looking and promising scandinavian blonde early 30 unmarried and no-child nurse... Like the best that could happen , my godly reward... A muse. Loyal ... Lies.
  • Anon on November 3 at 8:22 pm
    Lord, will be with you.
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