Prayer Single View

Please pray for me. Pray to our Lord Jesus, or to our Heavenly Father in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Pray that I be rescued from my afflictions. Believers around me keep telling me to keep hearing the word through sermons, and to keep reading. I spend all my time hearing and reading, and meditating on the word, and even preaching to myself. I received a vision that I would speak on stage at the church that I am attending. But I feel so unhappy. I don't really like my job, but I don't want God to take away my job too. I am 30 years old, turning 31, and I am too scared to take on a higher paying job. I want to get married someday, but I know marriage is not everything. I thank the Lord Jesus for everything, and I am doing His will. I obey whatever I've been taught. I pour out my heart to the Lord Jesus, but it seems that I am so lacking in love and wisdom. I let out all of my anger to Him. I used to dabble in New Age, and I've tried Buddhism and Taoism for healing.