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I feel like my children mock me, although they are estranged from years for years. Instead of asking the Lord God for understanding and wisdom, they live by the human fallen nature and have often caused pain and anguish to me through the human spirit. May the Lord give them what they need to love me, and even choose to do so. They also need to learn forgiveness. Please, Lord, grant them what they need to treat me better, although they are estranged from me. Hope for reconciliation and restoration is most unlikely from the evidence of the many years (decades). It hurts. I need healing all the time. Would the Lord bring a good man into my life to share mutual respect, that I might experience this with what number of years remain in my life. Still desiring a loving and kind relationship, despite my children. I can't change them, but God can.