Prayer Single View

Made some poor decisions and mistakes over the last few years and especially made a terrible mistake last year. These mistakes were not sinful in nature, just made a wrong choice. I have asked forgiveness and a chance to start again and redeem myself. i know God forgives and restores, but I cannot seem to get the last mistake out of my mind and forgive myself. I keep thinking of what could have been. Praying that God will restore what blessings (financial and relationship) I have lost or messed up and give me another chance in life. Asking God for financial provision during a difficult time as well. Also and very importantly asking God for a new opportunity to meet a woman to be my wife. Much of what is wrong with me is a desire for a Godly companion.